We've asked some of our current Kundalini Teacher Trainees to share with us their experiences as they undergo this immense process of learning and transformation. We hope that reading their stories will help inspire you in your own practice, whatever that may be! Here's an article from one of our guest authors, Amarpeet Singh:
The first 20 adult years of my existence was spent numbing out the seemingly meaninglessness of my every experience. Nothing was fulfilling for any period of time, and it never seemed like I got what I wanted; in fact, even if I got what I wished for I was quick to realize that it didn't fill the void, the loneliness, and the periodic despair. Thank God for moments of desperation because during a time of crisis I developed a willingness to take action and seek change in my life.
Out of a necessity to have some serenity in my daily life, I began a spiritual journey that led me into a morning meditation practice. Having never sat still for more than a few seconds in the previous 37 years of my life--including restless periods of sleep in which I often awoke feeling more tired than when I went to bed--I was forced to incorporate what I later learned in yoga class was considered "long deep breathing." Ahhh what a blessing it was to finally sit still in the quiet (without getting bored!) for 5 minutes, then 10 and 15 minutes. I began to realize that I wouldn't dare leave the house or do much of anything outside of waking up without first "tuning up/tuning in" with my morning meditation.
After a few months I began to crave something more to go along with my morning meditation, and I was advised to try Kundalini Yoga. It was a bit surprising at first how quickly I could transmute my irritating mind chatter and work through some of my feelings of angry self-pity during yoga class. Kundalini Yoga is the yoga of awareness, and I began to delve into the deep recesses of my personality to find that my feelings of helplessness and irritability were nothing more than extreme forms of selfishness--that I was somehow blocking myself off from the Light of my Spirit. I had begun to become determined to rid myself of this selfishness, if only a little bit at a time...
This became my intention during morning meditation. I was soon to know more than just increasing serenity, but also a feeling of usefulness in all aspects of my life and in my community. The realization for me was that unless I incorporate a daily discipline into my life once and for all, I would soon regress back into old patterns of bad thinking and selfish behavior. So I sought out more of the Kundalini Yoga teachers and people on similar spiritual paths that seemed to have the inspiration that I wanted. My attempt to learn more about how I could fine tune my daily personal practice led me to learning about classical sadhana approaches...
More to follow on the experience of Sadhana!
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